I can’t help but find wonder and awe in the short moments where everything suddenly feels as if it was meant to be. These points in my life literally give me chills. But they also provide me with a sense of validation. My life has, and always will have, some sort of purpose — even though the direction I’m headed often feels hazy.
With less than two weeks left in my officially booked time in New York, I’ve begun to face those real person questions that I never feel like I’ll be fully ready to answer. Where should I be looking for a job? Which companies are hiring? Do I commit to a seemingly perfect apartment before coming across said job? Where do I want to call my next home? I can’t even begin to come to terms with each of these questions, which leaves me feeling utterly overwhelmed and very much un-grounded at the end of most days.
SPI is officially over, which means that I have much more free time to ponder these questions. Over the course of one day (Friday), I went from being a student to being unemployed. Suddenly, I have no more set in stone plans. My sole goal is to find a job, and out of some deep sense of faith I adamantly believe that the position I am meant to take is going to present itself to me sooner or later.
But back to the meant to be moments, because the reason I feel so certain about finding the right job for me is because of the following experiences.
My trip to the palm reader:
About two weeks ago, I decided to visit a palm reader with one of my friends. It had been a long day, and I felt like I needed a little reassurance that my life was headed down some sort of quality path. I had seen the palm reader before, sitting on a chair on the sidewalk outside her shop about a block away from my dorm. But that day felt like the right day to inquire about her services, and I couldn’t have been more right about this gut feeling.
The palm reader told me to make two silent wishes to myself about my future. Out of a fear of bad karma and the serious powers of jinxing wishes, I won’t share them here. But I will admit that one was related to my career, and the other to my love life. Without saying anything, it was as if the palm reader picked up on the exact fears and anxieties that were rushing through my mind. With uncanny accuracy, she spoke of my most recent past and how it had shaped my current personality. She gave me a relatively specific timeline for major life events to come within the next year. But most importantly, she left me with a large grin on my face.
I have no doubt that the power of the palm reading might not be as spiritual as the establishment wants its customers to believe. But the take away message here is that I left feeling happy and empowered. So what if she can’t actually read my mind? She picked up on some sort of spiritual energy, and with that she instilled in me the stubborn will power to accomplish some of the items on her foretold calendar.
My fortune cookie:
After my trip to the palm reader, I went out to dinner with my friends. At the end of our Chinese meal, we received my favorite dish: the tray of fortune cookies. I found my fortune particularly timely after my visit to the palm reader just before this meal….
“Make your life an exclamation, not an explanation.”
I don’t need all of the answers to all of the questions I have. The next stage of my life is full of possibilities, and I could choose a number of paths knowing that they will lead to success and happiness. One thing I can be sure of is that I have friends and family who love me, and will support me regardless of whether or not my palm reading comes true.